Desperate Scribblings

Meeting on the Mountain

MEETING ON THE MOUNTAIN

Of the crime-I plead guilty. Mainly because on the surface, promises from the likes of you are hard to swallow. Sometimes you just can’t be trusted. I’m not going to lie. I set out to destroy you face to face. I was going to confront you with every damning doubt I ever had. You were going to admit your incompetence once and for all. But when that moment came, all I could do was stand there stupidly in front of you. Suddenly I felt like Jacob when that angel touched him and made him fall down flat on his face in the desert. While spitting the sand out of my mouth, all I could say was- you win again.

Notes: Inspired by my struggle to continue to believe in God and his all encompassing power


I Tried to Make You Ulysses

I TRIED TO MAKE YOU ULYSSES

I tried to make you Ulysses
and myself Telemachus

Until I realized that
there was nothing Homeric

About lipstick on your yellow
collar or your clothes in a grocery bag

Hmmmm..let’s see I think you -
my would be Odysseus -

Spent more time with your barroom
Circe than all of your other journeys combined

And myths you see in a concrete
lawyer child support world

Lie more vociferously than
the fatherly truths they represent

Because at least the sacker of
cities came home

Notes: Inspired by my own absentee father during my childhood


Elvis Had The Right Idea

ELVIS HAD THE RIGHT IDEA

well
imagine that-
the bloated drugfish
of a man who died
gasping for air on
his bathroom floor
made one of the
most profound statements
of the rocknroll
twentieth century
and it still
resonates to this
day-
once in a fit of rage
this pudgy american
saviour
shot and killed
the TV that
he was watching

Notes: Inspired by the notorious Elvis shooting at his TV incident and by the mind numbing nature of television


DEAR WHITE

DEAR WHITE

Dear White
In this subtle age of reconciliation
I must choose my words colorfully
So as not to upset the cart of
Integration - so I’ll say what I have
to say like this:

There are no Aunt Jemimas or Uncle Bens
Or Cream of Wheat Men even though
You can still see them

There are no Dixieland propaganda mansions
Inhabited by Hattie McDaniel or Butterfly
McQueen even though you can still watch them

And there are no epithets that can express
The abject absurdity of words that you have
Allowed to survive just so you can still
Use them

Dear White
Bales of bales of rotten cotton lies are
bought and sold on American auction
Blocks every day and if you are a buyer you have
Poisoned yourself

Notes: Inspired my initial watching of Gone with the Wind


The beautiful part of writing is that you don’t have to get it right the first time unlike, say, brain surgery.

– Robert Cormier (via writingadvice) Via writing advice

I am one of the searchers. There are, I believe, millions of us. We are not unhappy, but neither are we really content. We continue to explore life, hoping to uncover its ultimate secret. We continue to explore ourselves, hoping to understand. We like to walk along the beach, we are drawn by the ocean, taken by its power, its unceasing motion, its mystery and unspeakable beauty. We like forests and mountains„ deserts and hidden rivers, and the lonely cities as well. Our sadness is as much a part of our lives as is our laughter. To share our sadness with one we love is perhaps as great a joy as we can know - unless it be to share our laughter.

We searchers are ambitious only for life itself, for everything beautiful it can provide. Most of all we love and want to be loved. We want to live in a relationship that will not impede our wandering, nor prevent our search, nor lock us in prison walls; that will take us for what little we have to give. We do not want to prove ourselves to another or compete for love.

For wanderers, dreamers, and lovers, for lonely men and women who dare to ask of life everything good and beautiful. It is for those who are too gentle to live among wolves.

– James Kavanaugh (There are Men Too Gentle to Live Among Wolves)

(Source: myquotelibrary)

Via quote library.

NIETZSCHE IS DEAD

Ecce Homo!

The syphilitic philosophical masturbator

Proclaiming God is Dead

From his thus spake Superman chair

Leaves me whispering to his long decayed flesh

As I breathe the 21st century wind - I’ll make up

My own mind motherfucker



IN THE SKY

In these days of flying murderers

Memories are vulnerable

When houses were falling down

In trickiness

I was with them reaching

Listening to a terrified

Single mother afraid her

All- American baby boy would fall

From dreaming so high up

The birds flapping their

Curious feathers like flags

Encouraging me- I swore I could see our

Fatherless home back in Ohio

As my steel and glass

World champion brothers held my

Outstretched wings paternally

And whispered that every Icarus

Gets his chance- I just needed

to learn how to fly




ABBIE, I KNOW YOU WOULD BE LAUGHING

Abbie, if you could only see past

The helmeted policemen of the grave

And see Steal This Book on spiritual

Suburban bookshelves next to

How To Talk To Your Guardian Angel and

Flag shirts that made the silent majority scream for your

Hippie head on sale for $19.95 at K-Mart

I know you would be holding your genuine patriotic stomach

From the pain of your riotous glee all the while

Figuring out a way to block panty wearing G-Men

From reading your e-mails



 
Jesus Guevara
the way i see it
sometimes i think
its our only hope
at ironic reconciliation
some thing (the only thing)
that justifies my time in these
God Damned hills
i can’t stand for anything less
than you coming from the Left
and not the Right
extrapolations aside , Christ,
holy freedom
not devilish constraint
puts me back
at your feet
kissing the bloody
ground of moral
revolution

Jesus Guevara

the way i see it

sometimes i think

its our only hope

at ironic reconciliation

some thing (the only thing)

that justifies my time in these

God Damned hills

i can’t stand for anything less

than you coming from the Left

and not the Right

extrapolations aside , Christ,

holy freedom

not devilish constraint

puts me back

at your feet

kissing the bloody

ground of moral

revolution


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